my birth story of noah

It all started Wednesday, October 14^th, 2009 at 5:30 a.m.

Shawn and I woke up. Okay I lied. Shawn woke up. I didn’t sleep more than 45 minutes the night before knowing I was about to have a baby. After being told horror story after horror story the whole night before, I was scared out of my pants! Shawn drove me home from the hotel he was staying at the night before, and dropped me off. He wanted to drive me to the hospital, so I told him, “Do NOT be late.” I said in a “demeaning tone” I guess. Because he yelled at me and told me to get out of his truck! I wasn’t going to let him get me down on a VERY special day. So I went in and took my shower. Talked to my mom for a few, and then out the door we all went. I got into Shawn’s truck and he seemed perfectly content again. We drive to the hospital, I do my very last baby weigh in, wonder how I gained so much weight, and before I knew it, I was hooked up to IVs, had my pitocin on and ready to go, I had baby and heart monitors on, and I was being asked a bunch of questions.

This process went REALLY slow, as you can tell..

I was playing a game on Shawn’s phone.

Around noon, my doctor came in and told me he was going to break my water. I was about 3 cm dialated by this point.

Then around 3, my nurse came in and said I could get my epidural then or wait a little while longer. I was 4 cm dialated by this point 

Obviously I was feeling pretty okay, but I was ready to get the epidural.

So everyone but Shawn left the room and I got my epidural. Now I’m a big wimp when it comes to pain, so I thought it was going to hurt. I cried the WHOLE time I was getting it. It didn’t hurt, it tickled. But I cried. The pitocin was really messing with my head. Shawn and I cried together, because we knew it wouldn’t be much longer until our pride and joy was here.

At this moment, I was very much confused on what to name this little guy. I wanted Noah and Shawn wanted Blake.  But we both agreed on William for a middle name. Little did I know, this would be the LAST of my worries at that moment.

5:45ish, Shawn had gone to get me some v8 and some ice, and my mom walks in crying. All I could think of was, “who died?”

My mom said, “I need you to hear something. He’s planning to take the baby.”

That morning, Shawn had butt dialed my mom and left a message. He had been yelling at his dad, saying “I’m gonna take that baby from her and she will never see him again! He will be mine before she ever gets a chance to be his mom.” I lost it. Why would anyone threaten to take my baby boy away from me?! But then I started thinking about it, and realized it’s just Shawn talk, and Shawn has crazy moments, so maybe he was making it up. I know, who would think that after hearing a message like that.

Suddenly, security was in the room. I was talking to them. They told me I had the chance to keep him there or not. Of course who doesn’t want the fairy tail of mommy and daddy in the same room together. The medicine in the epidural had gotten to me so I was like “That’s what I want.” Then before I knew it, I was saying my goodbyes to him, and he was gone. I was shaking. I was having my very first panic attack. What was I to do?! I look over and saw Shawn left his phone. Then my doctor came in and told me, “For your health and the baby’s health, you’re getting an emergency c-section.” It all was happening too fast, and I felt like there was no one to care for me, hold me, or just cry with me. No one was listening to the very very “high” pregnant lady.

My mom came in, and the first thing she says is, “I called April and Ali, they will be here very soon.” I yelled, “NO!! THAT IS SOOO EMBARASSING! WHY WOULD YOU CALL THEM!?!?” She said she knew that I needed them there. I knew I did too. But I was SO embarassed. The first one I saw was April. She saw me crying, walked over, kissed me on the forehead and said she loved me. I’m getting emotional just thinking about all of this. But she was by my side until I went to the operation room. My Aunt Beth was coming with me to keep me calm!

She did great with distracting me. We even played a little game.

She said, “Let’s make a bet. How much do you think he’ll weigh?”

 I said, “7lbs 10oz”

She said, “7lbs 6oz”

Then she asked, “What color hair?”

I said, “Blonde, just like his mommy’s natural!”

She said, “brunette!”

Next thing I knew, I felt pressure, and I heard a screaming baby boy!

I was so excited! I started crying!! “MY BABY BOY!!! MY PRECIOUS BABY BOY!!!”

My unamed son at the time was born at 8:11pm weighing: 7lbs 11oz, 20 inches long, and had blonde hair, just like his mommy!! I WON!!

“how much do I weigh?!”

His very first picture!

OUR very first picture!

Photo by: April

Ali came in to see me while I was in recovery. I was very thankful to see her. I definitely needed her at that point! 

That night, April stayed with me, she changed his very first diaper, because I couldn’t sit up or anything. April and I tried our hardest to find baby names. I only remember Oliver, because I was soooooo messed up because of all the drugs they had me on. It was intense. The next morning I heard from Shawn and that night I heard from him. He told me to name the baby whatever I wanted, and finally on day 3 in the hospital, he became Noah Blake William Woolsey.

photo by april

 Very proud nana.

Photo by: ali.

We were in the hospital for FOUR days. The first full day after my c section, I had spent that whole day laying in bed starving, and I wasn't sure if I was allowed to eat yet. My mom came in at three and was talking to me and I said, I'm soooo hungry. I didn't get to eat yesterday because I was in labor with Noah all day, and I barely ate the day before that because I didn't want to do what some women do when they give birth [aka; poop] So I was veryyyyy hungry. I finally ate that day around 4ish. 

I think the worst part was going through the pain of my c-section, showering, and just trying to stay awake when I had visits. But it was nice to have help from everyone at the hospital those first few days. I wouldn't have been able to make it with out their help because of the pain the c-section caused. Honestly though, those first days in the hospital are kind of a blur to me. I was sooo drugged up that I didn't know what to do. lol. I am very thankful for all the people that were there with me that week [and the weeks after at home]! I needed a good support system after what I went through, but nothing even mattered the second I held my precious man! <3

Noah’s first ever proffesional pic (besides Ali’s pics)

leaving the hospital for his VERY FIRST car ride home!!

xx –

hope

the pregnancy of noah blake

Well, mine is very complicated, I guess is the way to put it.

Not the pregnancy, but the story was or is.

In 2009, I got pregnant with my very first and only child. I was beyond scared. I had just started cosmetology school at Kayes Beauty College, and just 2 weeks prior to starting, at my meeting my dad had taken me to meet with the guy to sign up, and the guy joked about taking leaves if a pregnancy ever occurred, and my dad said “trust me, she won’t be getting pregnant anytime soon.” Little did I know, 2 days before that, I had just become pregnant.  So here’s where the fun part comes in. My cycle has never been normal. I would either go months with out a period, or go completely on schedule. Usually at the beginning of the year is when I would skip, and it would go on for 2 or 3 months! I never really knew why. So, I did end up with my January period, and didn’t pay attention to February, March, or April, because I thought it was like every other year. Well, May came along, and I was extra emotional, and very opinionated, which caused Noah’s birth father and I to fight even more than usual. So, I was waiting for my period to come on and it didn’t. That’s when I noticed I had a line straight down the middle of my stomach. So, I googled it. I saw that it was called “linea negra” and that’s when I found out I just might be pregnant. Well, that week, my fiance at the time (Noah’s birth father) came to stay, and we were staying at my friend April’s apartment. (We were staying with April because he lived in Vincennes, Indiana, and I live in Noblesville, IN. It’s a three hour difference, and he wasn’t allowed to stay at my house. My mom and Shawn do not and will never get along. They don’t like each other. It was a very sad year of my life! Lol) We got into a huge fight one night, and April came out to see what was the matter when her husband told her that I was crying on her couch in the living room. She came out to see what was the matter, and then after she left the room, fiance left her apartment too! I finally got ahold of him, found out where he was, and broke the news to him that there was a good chance I was pregnant. We went out bought a test, went back to April’s, and I looked at april with a certain look and said that I was going to use her restroom, and next thing I knew she was up off the couch walking with me. I sat there for a while just talking to her. Very very scared to take the test. Then I took it. Tick tock tick tock. And when we looked at the test, we couldn’t really tell, but it looked like it was positive. Next thing I knew, Shawn and I were planning doctors visits! Well, we found out at our first appointment that we were having a baby boy.

Then it was telling my mom. My mom, like most parents of younger adults, was very upset and worried. We didn’t really talk to each other for 2 weeks. I gave her, her own space, and she gave me mine. When we finally worked it out, she was very excited. Our first “happy” talk was went like this “I’m too young to be considered ‘grandma’ so he will call me ‘nana’..” and that was that. Haha. During the two weeks of not talking to my mom, is when we started announcing. Well, it was more like, Shawn told one person and changed his status to “boy or girl?” and everyone and their mom was texting me. So changing my profile pic to my ultrasound picture of “it’s a boy” was the best way to do it! I promise you though, to this day, some of my friends on facebook still ask me when I had a baby! Haha

First baby bump pics:

**JULY 4^TH**

After Shawn went back home, all we did was fight. Every single night we fought. I was always so upset. Crying every night. But I loved him. He was my fiancee, what else could I put up with? I had a job and our main fight was for me to quit my job and move with him. He didn’t have his own place and he didn’t have a job. So preggo would starve. No way! About mid august, I ended up losing my job because he wouldn’t wake up to take me home and my phone and his phone was shut off. The girl we were staying with had a phone that was shut off too. So I couldn’t call into work. It was awful. Then he wouldn’t take me home because he didn’t want the baby and I to leave (meaning the baby in my belly! Lol) We fought outside of my house for 2 ½ hours because he didn’t want to drive all the way back home with out me. Then when I finally convinced him to leave, told him I’d stay up til he got home. Well 3 hours is a long time to wait for a pregnant lady. So I told him I was going to bed via facebook and he cussed me out for it when he got home. I’m pregnant and sleepy! I’ll do what I want. That was my thought anyways. 

The day pregnant horomones got the best of me and I cut off all my hair was crazy! I just got out of my computer chair after seeing an adorable pic of Selena Gomez, and decided that’s how I wanted my hair. I was the girl who said, "I won't cut my hair off. I refuse to be THAT pregnant woman." haha. I guess I lied!

7 month belly pics::

My last FULL month of pregnancy was September. Which lead to my rib fest, my baby shower, and  my 21^st birthday. Ribfest included more food than you could ever imagine!! I ate and ate and ate. Oh and I ATE!!

I had two baby showers! One was supposed to be for just friends and my grandma, but only a few came to that one, and my second one was supposed to be for just family, but all my friends showed up to that one! Haha. It was fun though!!

 2 very proud greats! “great aunt janie” and “great grandfather

this pic are some of the most amazing friends I could ask for. Jackie, Lily, and April. Some amazing women who could get me through anything!!

Soon after was my 21^st birthday, which consisted of spending time with my mom and april! And I even got to eat from the SPAGHETTI FACTORY! Oh I was excited!!

(this was our first “April’s the one not pregnant and hope is” picture! Haha.

About a week and a half before Noah was born!!

So let’s skip to OCTOBER!!

A week before Noah was born, I got to pick a date to be induced. I only did this because I wanted to make sure Shawn was there for the delivery! The doctor chose October  14, 2009!

This story will be continued on a next post where you’ll see how choosing to be induced wasn’t such a good idea!! Stay tuned!!

xx

hope 

Where it all began.

I was the kind of girl who wanted to wait for marriage before she ever had sex with a guy.
But when people were talking about how they didn't think i could do it, I just gave up in believing it and one random night, before I knew it, I had lost my virginity. I was a good girl before that.. had only partied a few times, but that exact same year, I went off to Vincennes University. I started changing. I met new awesome friends, became an active for Beta Xi Omega sorority, and was having fun. I started partying a LOT. In fact, that's all I cared to do. I loved drinking. Partying. And having fun. I found any party I could go to just to have fun.

Well, my third, and what would be my FINAL semester at VU, I started falling for someone I never thought I would, and when we finally started dating, everything was amazing... or so it seemed.

When I moved home that December, we got engaged. It was quick, yes, but at the time I thought it was right. We were really close and everything was great. Then in January, things had started to fall apart quickly, he and my parents did not get along at all, so if we wanted to hang out I had to go to Vincennes to visit him.

In my next post, I will tell you all about my pregnancy story (:
It's a crazy but honest one.
(:

xx
- hope

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my other blog, is all about things i need advice on or want to rant about in my life, and this one is all about how one girl went from being a good girl, to a party girl, to a mommy all in 2 years! it's a very interesting story and i'll start my story in my next post! (: <3 thank you to everyone who follows and wants to read about my entire change in life, how things are going with my baby and what new challenges i face daily!! the only reason i wanted to do this blog, is because my bff jackie had talked me into mommy blogging. she writes an amazing blog herself, and after she talked me into it a few weeks ago, i finally decided to do it.

xx
hope





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